_.::""::._ Seize My Tomorrows _.::""::._

more to come

2010-06-08T18:45:00.002+08:00

Finally I have the time to blog. DONE with my MUET examination and mid-term. And now waiting for results. Got back PA and PP, econs and history are still under process. Overall, frankly, I am satisfied with my results except PA. Expected much really. Not to say I am really sad of it because I did my best shot, I've done my BEST. As for PP, I studied very hard, memorizing days and nights, burned midnight oil and LUCKILY it pays off =D happy with it.

There will be NO HOLIDAYS FOR ME !! STUDIES MUST BE MY TOP PRIORITY !!

2010-05-17T19:38:00.001+08:00

IN TOTAL SPEECHLESS !
just do what you want....

preparation

2010-05-13T05:11:00.001+08:00

IS 5.11 am now.... and I'm still working on my WORLD HISTORY ~~~~

BEST OF LUCK !!!

ciaoz.... continue studies..... wink* =D

midterm

2010-05-11T16:43:00.003+08:00

great!! time flies ! and I do not have enough time to study =X it is just like.... a never-enough-task for me to achieve. No matter how much I studied, still feel that it is NOT ENOUGH...... haihz

well, having midterm this very THURSDAY (13/05)!!!!!

IS TIME TO .............. =X

BEST OF LUCK TO TMN SEA FORM SIXES !!! DO GIVE YOUR BEST SHOT ! =D

DONE, MUET !

2010-05-05T17:02:00.002+08:00

FINALLY DONE with my muet examination. We tested on paper2 today - Speaking. Personally, I think my group did a GREAT job in task A and B. Nigel, you rock!!! LOL. but how can you 'shit' in front of the examiners? =O Overall, all of us(6AB) have done a great job ! PN V should be proud of us =D haha!

NOW have to focus on mid-term. Study Smart people !

MUET trial + friendship

2010-04-26T18:44:00.003+08:00

My MUET trial paper finally over and I'm satisfied with my result except paper 3 (reading). Bidaras, you guys should know why I'm sure =X

Anyways, I'm proud to be part of Bidara and thank you for supporting me all the way =D Glad to have you guys as my friends and this is where I can really see the friendship. Credits go to Charlie Tango, Alpha Lima, Tango Lima Lima, Kilo Tango, November, Bravo, Kilo Whiskey, Yankee Charlie......... and not forgetting my another two SAKAI friends !!!! ~~~

ALL I KNOW IS A FRIEND IN NEED IS A FRIEND INDEED

thank you friends..... LOVE you all ~~~~ wink*

endless

2010-04-23T18:47:00.004+08:00

AGAIN.... my tears fell off. I promised not to cry for you anymore but I failed to do so!

more to go

2010-04-12T15:42:00.004+08:00

Sat for MUET paper 3 and 4 today. Nearly screwed up in paper4, but luckily managed to "save" it =D there are more more more tests and exams coming up......

I just relized I have a lot more to study..... haihz =X

GOD BLESS

packed week

2010-03-24T23:34:00.003+08:00

My weeks are getting more and more busy, more and more hectic. STRESS is all over, surrounding me. Teachers keep reminding us to STUDY STUDY and STUDY, nothing else! Just finished my March monthly test. This is only a small test and yet I already screwed up. Don't know how am I going to handle the actual exam - STPM. Honestly, during the one week of school holiday, that was really the time that I really sit down and STUDY! And it was also my first time to really tried very very hard to study PP and memorized it... somehow, I DID IT =D i learn to "accept" PP because initially I hated it very much. My this whole week already packed. Monday to Wednesday - test, Thursday - kuiz kerjaya, Friday to Sunday - camp muafakat.

NEED TIME TO HAVE A TIGHT SLEEP BADLY =X

annual camp

2010-03-15T12:31:00.002+08:00

Went to RC annual camp last weekend in school. To all camp committee, you guys did a great job and hope you all really learned something that can bring this society to a higher level. In all honestly, the camp was a success!! In the camp, I met back my secondary friends. After 2 years plus, finally we can get together sit down and chat. Spent a meaningful night together =D

*SOME MEMORIES NEVER FADE, SOME FEELINGS NEVER CHANGE*

misund

2010-03-12T14:45:00.003+08:00

We can simply misunderstand people in just not even a minute but WHY are we taking ages to understand something nor someone? If only you are in my shoes, you will know what I mean.

" Lord Jesus, please continue to bless and empower me. Lighten up my daily life, bring me out from this current situation. Grant me strength and courage to accept all the awful truth outside. Heavenly father, I pray that you continue to bless and protect me from sorrows. Pour out your blessing and love on all of my days. In Jesus name, amen. "

hectic week

2010-03-10T21:20:00.003+08:00

It is a hectic week for me. I have so much to do for the week yet I have not enough time. My timetable is fully packed and I can't help it. ALL THINGS are waiting for me to settle, but I don't know how am I going to handle it. Today already Wednesday, tomorrow is Thursday then Friday, Saturday and Sunday - camp.... A week gone just like that. Every day I wonder, did I do anything meaningful in my daily life? I doubt that. I don't know why people keep expecting more from me. Initially it is a motivation for me to go further but eventually it pressured me indirectly. I know my limit and I am soon gonna hit my limit.

At times things can not put it in word. It happens just like that, is not within our control. I might look like a cheerful girl but deep down inside I don't think I am. I hided everything from my parents, teachers, friends...... No point telling because I know there is NO ONE out there can help except me myself. I gave myself a try, but I failed. Nothing can be done and I chose to leave it aside, don't want to bother anymore.

Frankly, I dislike holidays especially school holidays. My to do list for this coming school hols is two pages. Tests and exams that really matter me right now. After the march holiday, there are two tests I'm gonna sit for, one is Econs, another one is PP (business) which I HATE THE MOST. Basically I have no interest in it, not at all and it is kinda...... "nothing to do with me". I wouldn't use the word force, but fact is PP is a compulsory subject for us in this school. I have no choice but to study for its sake. To be honest, I study PP is just for the test and exam.

I have my presentations after the hols, tests of course, R&D proposal to be submitted, class page to be done, camp to be organized, tons and tons of studies..... which is the most most important task during the hols and not forgetting preparation for MUET examination. I AM NOT GONNA SIT FOR IT FOR THE SECOND TIME which is on Sep. It is a waste of time and money to do so.

THERE ARE SO MUCH TO DO BUT SO LITTLE TIME

study time!

2010-03-09T14:51:00.001+08:00

*** PREPARING FOR MID-YEAR ***

you raise me up

2010-02-28T09:08:00.003+08:00

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up... To more than I can be.

I know you came back, sixth sense tells me so. Want to prove whether it accurates, drove all the way to your house, turned in the junction already saw your car........

I SPEECHLESS

three things in life

2010-02-15T15:20:00.002+08:00

I got this from church... is very meaningful though

3 THINGS IN LIFE

3 things in life that once gone, never come back:

TIME
WORDS
OPPORTUNITY

3 things in life that one should always has:

HOPE
PEACE
HONESTY

3 things in life that are most valuable:

LOVE
FRIENDS
SELF-CONFIDENCE

3 things in life that are never certain:

SUCCESS
DREAMS
FORTUNE

3 things in life that make a good person:

SINCERITY
HARD WORK
COMPASSION

3 things in life that can destroy a person:

PRIDE
GREED
ANGER

3 things in life that are truly constant:

"FATHER"
"SON"
"HOLY SPIRIT"

happy CNY

2010-02-12T22:29:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 2 in 1 PEOPLE !!!!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

HAPPY VALENTINE

stronger

2010-02-12T00:19:00.001+08:00

I GONNA BE EVEN STRONGER THAN BEFORE!!

sucks

2010-02-11T00:49:00.007+08:00

I can't bring myself to sleep and so blogging here.
I just don't understand why?! Why sometimes things happened which is nothing to do with me but yet I HAVE TO FACE THE CONSEQUENCES??! WHY?!? This is SO UNFAIR to me! Just like my car. Parents didn't scold me on that but keep saying never mind. Is it really doesn't matter to them?? BUT I MIND! I VERY MIND! A nice car after letting me drive dented here and there. Why don't they scold me?? It will makes me feel more comfortable rather than now I keep blaming myself. All said it wasn't not my fault, but I tell you, IT IS MY FAULT, I have to be responsible for the car I'm driving. Can you all just scold me?? Is not worthy to treat me so good. Having this feeling is SUCKs! SUCKs TO THE MAX !!!

Why am I keep facing problems these few days? I know, life without trouble isn't life. But life full of troubles is also not a life, so can anyone there tell me, WHAT IS LIFE ABOUT? Is just like a never ending for me, every day sure something bad will happen to me. Why is it must be me? What have I done until God punish me in this way? Where is your justice Lord? Aren't you should punish those wicked people? But why?? I'm sorry for blaming.

Let me pour everything out here. I no longer can keep to myself. I also have my own limits and this is way enough for me! Yes, I know I have to face the reality outside, have to face it myself, but I am seriously lack of confidence in facing the outside world even my tomorrows. I've TOTALLY LOST my purpose in life. Why after all hardship, I still wouldn't get what I want? All I know is no hardship, no victory. UNFORTUNATELY, it DOESN'T WORKS on me. So what for I still pushing myself to achieve it? Shouldn't I just lay back and relax?

YES! I strongly agree with you, max. It is 50-50 to you, and it's same goes to me. This is NOT the first time for you treating me like this. I experienced it before! So shouldn't be a problem for me to get on with my life.

anymore = forever = hopeless

Is it really when there's a will, there's a way?

BULL SHIT!! I CAN ASSURE THAT

Just by wishing and hoping, things will come into our ways?

STOP DREAMING !

weird feeling

2010-02-10T16:50:00.005+08:00

I'm having a very weird feeling NOW, at this particular point. I don't feel like going any further into this. I don't actually need it in life now. Although I do really missed it but what is over just let it be. There's no way of turning back, no longer having the same thoughts and feelings, most important is I no longer have to courage to trust it will happen once again. To tell the truth, I'm really hoping but fact is fact, we have and need to face it even if we choose not to.

NO MORE TURNING BACK

why I just CAN'T get what I want????

good beginning

2010-02-08T18:26:00.003+08:00

It is so HAPPENING for today =D Early morning wake up knowing today gonna be a great day ahead! And true enough. I don't know since when I found it is more easy for me to let go, to give up rather than keep wanting it to happen, forcing it to happen. Things won't work out if only me the one who keep hoping it to really come true without considering other factors. I neglected a lot for this to happen, not regret just a bit "sayang". THINGS WORK WHEN I LEAST EXPECT! =)) I NEED TO BE BACK MYSELF

hoping

2010-02-07T23:45:00.003+08:00

Went to duty last night at Puchong there. It was actually an event organized by acts church, a sports event. So happy after the duty, I FINALLY FOUND BACK THE FEELING THAT I USED TO HAD LAST TIME together with them. This is awesome for me!!! Nothing much, just two major cases, suspect fracture on the elbow and ankle. So we bandaged and called them to pay a visit to the hospital. It was a great day although I burned out =)

A new week has begin, firstly..... I want to have a goof luck. Hoping everything will goes on smoothly.

It has been a week ever since...........

School Replacement

2010-02-06T16:12:00.003+08:00

Day by day, I don't know whether my decision is correct? I don't know is it the time for me? I don't know should I take a step further or just stay put here, doing nothing to solve "this" problem? Currently my life is in a mess, my studies, my car........ All things suddenly just pop out like that without me knowing it. Once again, I'm lost! I do not know what is next coming for me, what is gonna happen and how "it" gonna work out. Why every time after a decision has been made, for sure I will regret on it? Why can't I just put it aside and doing zero reconsideration? If only I can do that, I'm not the steph that you know. I am really trying very very hard to be a better person, to be more realistic and to be more MATURE.

Today I had a school replacement for the coming cyn hols. Only 4 turned up, good enough for us to catch a movie in the APD room. Watched "17 again". There were many scenes that touched my heart, so sweet~

hope my black luck will come to an END!!!

Tough Week

2010-02-04T16:40:00.004+08:00

Long time didn't blog... Well.. THIS WEEK IS THE WORST AND BLACKEST WEEK ever in my whole entire life!!! So many things happened to me and this is only the second month of the year 2010. I do learnt a lot as well lost a lot too. I lost thing that I beloved the most but I do gained a lot of friendships! This is exactly what pn tan has told me, when god takes one away, he will gives 9 in return!

Well, CYN coming, new year, new life, new hope! Really hope EVERYTHING will goes on smoothly and pls pls pls..... no more accidents for me!

A 5 years deal, will it comes true? I let go to god. I no longer have anything to say, anything to do either. Just let the time prove it, prove I'm wrong and you are RIGHT. Take care. Don't get messed anymore

2009-12-31T14:04:00.003+08:00

meaningful 2009

2009-11-30T11:57:00.001+08:00

I HATE WAITING I HATE WAITING I HATE WAITING I HATE WAITING I HATE WAITING !!!

2009-11-27T21:07:00.004+08:00

ok ok! I need to blog more often, knowing you keeping track on me. Well, time really flies. Going to be end of november and december coming. School hols started a week ago and I have nothing to do other than sleep, eat, watching movie and going out. My night life started since the beginning of hols. November hols at least can relex a bit however I still have some plans for december hols to fully utilize my time, time is precious. First of all it's gonna be my studies. Top priority for that of course. Next year gonna be my final year and I'll be sitting for the toughest paper on earth!! God Bless. No joke! I don't know how am I gonna handle it. Will I take it as a normal exam or something extraordinary? What am I worrying now is am I able to pass my business study. I find it very hard not to understand but to amply keywords while answering questions. How to answer only can get high mark or maybe full mark? Argh!! Ask teacher? Tried but useless. Not planning to work this year, so I will be cracking my head to figure it out. If I fail any one of the subjects, means I am wasting my one and a half years in Form6 and won't be able to enter local uni. Frankly the main reason I choose to enter local uni is because of financial problem. Not gonna touch so much on this matter. It will be a different life in uni compare to college. Wait, let me experience it myself and I will do further explanation. LOL. Next, I am going to trips and camps. Cool? Yea, it will be fun when you have great companions =D Also plan to sweat for the hols meaning will be playing sports. Healthy and can slim down, isn't it great? Killing two birds with only a stone X) WoW! My birthday coming. My 18th bday~ wakaka! xD looking really forward to it!

2009-11-21T11:41:00.002+08:00

my emotions taking charge of me these few days. i get angry and sad fast. this minute you can see me laugh and smile, next minute you will be seeing me with a sad and dull look. i tried very hard to control and hide but it still very obvious. ya right, something happened. it happened very sudden and i need time to accept and overcome it. i know the coming 5years will be very tough for me to live through. however, with the grace of GOD i will stand by myself and face all problems with a open hearted.

time really flies and today is the first day of school hols. well, my plan of this school hols will be boring and no fun. i will do my studies for the whole hols cause i missed out a lot due to the 3months absence. for course not study day and night but something similar. lol. he called me to spend my dec hols with him, looking forward to it.

i finished my holiday hw but still have a econs project to do. estimate it will takes me around 1week? hopefully, so i have time to do something else =DD

happy holiday!

2009-11-08T16:17:00.004+08:00

ppl backstabbing you, you also don't know. don't be so naive, boy !!!

2009-11-07T14:54:00.005+08:00

Yesterday when out with one whole brunch of form sixes. there were 3 classes went for this "outing" last night. 6BS/BT, 6BK and 6BB/BM. i joined the kenanga's group although i'm from bidara. somehow i find it more relax and closer with them. no offence for the bidara group. we had dinner together at kim gary, the curve later on followed by movie then supper. watch 'poker king'. it was a comedy movie, laugh and laugh throughout the movie. really enjoyed it =) reached home 1.15am (-o-*) ZZzzz~

missing ~~~~

sick

2009-11-05T16:23:00.004+08:00

i knew today is not gonna be a good day. and IT IS! true enough today isn't a great day. i wanted to tell him a lot of things but before i can actually started he already shooting out his problems to me. what can i do beside giving moral support?? who can tell me?

woke up with my nose blocked, can't breathe cuz both nostril were blocked. no choice but to breathe through my mouth. quite unhygienic for me. not only blocked nose but also headached and diarrhea. toilet and sleep the whole day.

i got back all my exam papers. was satisfied, very! with the absence of 3months still can answered, not bad! =D the highest mark i got was econs. thanks to Puan Su. lowest was PP(business). really have no interest in it. well, next wednesday is RKA day, taking report card. dunno what will happen, dunno what the teachers will comment about me. haihz

i got caught ytd while i'm driving. the police checked my driving license. guess what he says. "saya ingin kamu ini bawa kereta bawah umur, muka macam budak tingkatan 4 atau 5 aje" i responded him by giving him a sweat look. LoL -.-

now school ends at 3.30pm every day thanks to the dasar made by kementerian. if stay until 3.30 to have teachers teaching in class then ok larh, but this one no! stay until 3.30 for doing stupid R&D. dunno for what only??? majority form6 teachers also objected this dasar but nothing can be done and also cuz we have a very good good F6 teacher that keep promoting how good can it be and stuff. in fact all of us find it USELESS!! no offence

hopefully tmr will be a better day for u and for me

ns

2009-11-01T09:09:00.002+08:00

Hey, I'm back with my blog after taking a long break. Well, I spent my 3months in National Service (NS). Looking back, i have learnt a lot from day1 to day82, from the moment we do not know each other to the day we became buddy until the day we waved our hands saying bye and continue our daily routine like before..... 3months not to say long, not to say short but definitely is a best and memorable experience in my life.

I had a shocked for the first sight of this campsite. it looked so NEW and all facilities were in a good condition. we stayed in chalet instead of a long dorm. 6 in a room, very good! the bed was so comfortable. my bed was right under the fan, so nice when sleeping........ ya and there will be very cold in the middle of the night. although they provide us blanket but i didn't use it cause not used to it, i used towel to cover myself instead.

We were given 1pair of boot, 1pair of sport shoes, 1pair of class shoes, 1belt, 1beret, 2pairs of white shocks, 2pairs of grey shocks, 2pairs of black shocks, 2sets of full loreng, 2inner loreng, 2sets of sport attire, 2sets of class attire and 2towels. really well provided.

Throughout the 3months, we had different different activities, projects, competitions and talks. the trainers there really inspired and enlighten me A LOT! although they always put on a fierce look but they were kind inside. Cikgu Yunus was the trainer that i really look up to and inspired me the most. He's our Bravo company trainer. Without him, i wouldn't had get BEST HEROINE AWARD. he really taught me in life. really very thankful to him.

I can conclude by saying whatever i learnt in camp, i wouldn't learn it in school. the experience that i get is priceless!!

2009-09-18T15:17:00.002+08:00

There was once my friend asked me, what's my purpose in life? I stucked at this question for a few seconds and answered ...........................xxx........................ Well, everyone has their own views and perspectives in life. We can't say who's right and who's wrong padahal there's no right or wrong. Everyone has own feelings, everyone has own thoughts, thus is better for us not to sabotage ppl's mind and life.

I've done my best to comfort and help you, yet u'r still feeling down and depressed. I can no longer do anything to keep u up...................

2009-09-08T15:34:00.002+08:00

I'M BACK !!!!! ~

MEANINGFUL 2009 ><

GREAT EXPERIENCE! ;)

BRAVO ~VO~VO~VO~!

KAMI SEMANGAT KAMI JUARA

TIDAK TAKUT TIDAK GENTAR

KAMI SEMUA KERJASAMA

SEMANGAT ! JUARA ! MEMBARA !

KERJASAMA BERUSAHA

KAMI PASTI MENJADI JUARA

BRA~A~VO~ MESTI BOLEH ! BOLEH !

KEEP IT UP ! KEEP IT UP !

BRAVO ~~~~ BEST !!!!

2009-06-17T01:23:00.001+08:00

NASIONAL SERVICE CURRENTLY

b4 going ns

2009-06-17T00:28:00.003+08:00

Well, now is 12.30am, I still have exactly 8 more hours and I'll be going NS. I repack all my stuff, and now my bag is soooo HEAVY!

This morning reached school only I met Pn Yee. She's so nice, said good luck to me for my NS. LoL. Actually I planned to pay school fee, but since my form teacher MC, so too bad larh.... Wait until I've done my ns first. Today didn't study much except for PA and Maths S. So the rest of the time we played in class, talked non sense, laughed like nobody's business....... WHO CARES? NO ONE! lol. I got touched by my this male friend, he sang a song for me...... WAHAHA! X)

VERY THANK YOU TO MY CLASSMATES, they actually did a farewell for me.... =) Oooo, imagine, how sweet it is? ;D THANKS A MILLION!

I got an interview right after school and it was satisfied. Proud of myself xD After that I played badminton at taman megah court with classmates again. It's actually part of the farewell since I love badminton like crazy. Yeah! We played with our own unique styles. Sat and play, all right-handed but played with left hands, golf style, tennis style......... FUN!

My phone rang the whole night, calls and messages from all friends and extended family members wishing me good luck and take care.... SO TOUCHED~ msn also

At night, guess what? Friends even came and visit me....... not one, not two, but nine!!!! All my close friends. WOW!!! THANKS larh just, besides thanks, I don't know what to say...... Appreciate it very much!

Wait! I haven't wish Joey and Yng Hui happy 18th bday! Although I can't celebrate with you guys, but I wish you two have a blessed and happy bday! F6 no longer like F5, must study hard and smart k cause later when I come back you guys have to teach me.... every subjects, don't care! so ya.... STUDY!! STUDY FOR FUTURE!!! ;D

I WILL DEFINITELY TAKE CARE...... NS, HERE I COME~~~!!! YAHoooO!

KEM HUTAN REKREASI AIR KEROH, MELAKA

2009-06-15T17:04:00.005+08:00

I can't connect to the internet since last monday. Well, I can definitely conclu that last week was a tough week. I hurt myself don't know for how many times, so boring that I couldn't want to wake up in the morning until I felt hungry then only I wake up and have my brunch. Let's start by monday.

Monday, I woke up doing nothing and yet I got fever and sore throat. I don't feel like eating medicines cause basically I don't know how to shollaw pills. My mom force me to. I felt very geli when the pills stopped at my throat and made me felt like want to vomit. DAMN !!! At night dad wanted to bring me to visit doctor and I agreed that I'll be going but at the very last minute, I changed my mind..... stay at home and study better. STUPID HAZE!

Tuesday, I woke up with a slight fever. As usual I'll be doing nothing besides study. In the afternoon, I called up TM Net saying I can't connect myself to the internet. I tell you, is just so freaking hard to get through them! So busy the line. Finally got through, then they tought me how to overcome this problem. At first click

start -> all programs -> accessories -> command prompt -> right click -> run as -> administrator -> ....................

this is only one of the method. Still have the second and third method. Cause my comp is in my room, not beside the house phone, so I've to run in and out, click the whichever buttons and run back out to the living room and " hello, yes, I clicked that button edi, what's next? " It wasn't a one shot thingy and it took me around 20 minutes to settle and at last guess what they said.

" Sorry stephanie, is our internet service currently BREAKS DOWN. It's nothing to do with your account settings, password and your user ID. "
" Why don't you say earlier? "
" I'm sorry, very sorry."
" Is ok, as long there's nothing to do with me account. So when can I connect to the internet back? "
" We are now working on it, maybe you and try at night? "
" Sure, thanks then. "
" Sorry for any inconvenience caused and thanks for calling TM Net customer service. "

Geram.... Geram.....!!!

Wednesday, I knocked right my toe and cut my right ulna..... crazy! My toe I got internal bleeding and ulna external bleeding larh of course. Malang.... I packed my stuff ready to go to NS. At first I brought a lot of clothes and it's way too heavy for me to carry, thus, I poured out everything and pack again and now there's a lot of spaces left. WAHAHA! x) yahooo~

Thursday, I played computer games the whole day as in the all afternoon and night ;D I threw out after having dinner out of a sudden. Guess ate too full, over the limit. LoL

Friday. Hmm.... OK, I woke up at 12.30pm, after having brunch, watched tv awhile and prepared to go play badminton. Didn't play for quite some time. Reached there only..... OMG!!! It's just like a reunion gathering for us (the jasminez). Some that I never been seeing them after SPM were there playing with me, some that I've lost contacts with were there...... Sooooo long didn't see them but they still looked the same as high school time with only coloured hair. Whoa! I MISSED HIGH SCHOOL! What's next? second round of course! We drove to a park which located at the housing area, tmn mayang for basketball. Yea, second round basketball. We played basketball with our OWE way of playing. Girls and guys mixed. So we played with guys and once we got the ball, the guys will automatically gave way to us....... Guys don't dare to snag the ball from us and we did snag from them. And whenever they want to pass the ball to us, they used the bowl method which is roll to us as we couldn't get the ball when they used the basketball method. We screamed and played like no body's business and my team this girl friend, once she got the ball only, " GO AWAY GO AWAY!! THIS IS MY BALL!! " and all the guys just stood aside and watched her how she shoots and scores! Sooo gentlemen ;) This is just "US" when we were a team and play together. Know what's our third round? haha! of course go yum cha larh. yea, and so we drove to ming tian and have some drinks. In between we chatted a lot and this shown how much we care of each other =) talk and talk and they decided to catch a movie or sing-k later on after bathing and dinner. Since we were so busy in previous months, after all everyone agreed with it and by the time already 7pm so rushed back and met at cineleisure at 8.30 shape. Malaysian timing, no choice, we gathered there at 9.15 and luckily we were just in time for the movie "blood, the last vampire". We chose this movie cause everyone wants to get shock and loves watching horror movie. This guy friend, don't know what happened to him, kept laughing throughout the movie and his laughing virus spread to us and we started laughing there.... MY GOODNESS!!!! We sat quiet front and no one in front of us. COOL xP This should be a horror movie and we don't see any scary part or interesting part neither. The blood and the way the actress kills those vampires just too fake. After the movie only we start complaining, one of them even bored until in the middle of the movie, took out his phone and play pokemon game. -.-

Everything was fine and just until the minute I received "THAT" msg from a friend. Can say a bit disappointing and I don't feel like replying...... For me, I see no point argue for that so I shall just let it be. But isn't just the way I want it to be ? Ahh.... Stop thinking, stephanie..... you will be fine....

I still remember, HAPPY 21TH BIRTHDAY HUEY LYNN!!! MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND BE WITH YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER!

Today school reopen, feeling? hmm.... ok larh, but still very boring. Used up 5 tissues just to clean and wipe my desk and chair, cause basically they were filled with dusts due to 2 weeks of holidays.

" you should stay and study science, why want to change? "

" Ooo, no no no! I'll suffer if I study science. "

" Let me help you to suffer. "

" .... "

I MET A STRANGER!!!~

2009-06-05T16:58:00.004+08:00

Idislikewhenpeopletryingtodigthingsbackoutandtalk. Justletitbelarh, overisover. Stopdiscussingonthismatteranymorecanornot ?

LET me go NS peacefully and happily. THS a million

I'M DONE WITH THIS ;D

2009-06-05T11:45:00.005+08:00

Day by day... tomorrow tomorrow and tomorrow... I admit I was worried about my NS, I dunno how's the place gonna be like, how will people act in there, how this how there.... Is a bit scary though. But another part of me feeling very excited, very lucky cause can fulfill my 3months there. Ahhh.... Fickle minded. To be honest, I'm not that worry about my academic, cause basically all subjects that I've taken more to memorizing, so is fine for me. The thing that I worried the most is XXXXXXX. I just hope everything will go smoothly in these 3 months. GOD BLESS.

Tuesday and Thursday night I went for a small shop, used up almost RM 140 in two days to get all stuff ready. As for Wednesday night, I went to my aunt's place and visited my grandparents. My gong gong slimmed down a lot a lot!! So heart pain when I saw him. Hiahzz ;(

I have no mood to study. According to my timetable, I should had finished 5 chapters of PA this week. But seems that I couldn't make it, I only get to studied until chapter 4. Friends all enjoying outside, of course larh, they are not going to NS. Shit!! I'll be studying alone there, loneliness surrounding me.... T_T can I bring my pillow along with me to NS? Feel like hugging something........ ~

I HAVE MY whole ENTIRE RIGHT TO DO THAT !

gemuruh

2009-06-03T10:27:00.008+08:00

Went to clinic to do full body check up for NS. There were 4 rooms for me to do different different types of checkups. Firstly I tested on my eyes' sight, then proceeded to the next room which is urine test. Okay. everything normal. Third was checking of height, weight and pressure. Lastly, full body check up, lying on a bed which had blood stain. NOT hygiene AT ALL! The doctor said I high blood pressure, need to go back and recheck after my NS. Is kinda serious! LOL. I'm not to say prejudice or what, just that I really dislike government clinics and hospitals. If you go through what I've been through, you will know why....... hmm, yea =)

Exactly 2 more weeks and i shall attend my NS. Looking forward to it. Although I will miss a lot of stuff.... but never mind. I only can go NS once in my whole entire life,isn't it? People said can differ, yes, i know, can differ, but how sure are you they will call you back for it? Most probably they won't. Most of us want to differ is because we don't want to go for it, BUT my case is different. I WANT TO GO FOR NS, I'M WILLING TO GO AND I'LL GO NO MATTER WHAT OR HOW! That's ME!!!

* Bila bertalu, rentak dikalbu,

Hasrat yang tersirat semakin kuburu,

Bila bergema, laungan gempita,

Harapan beryala, nadiku berganda ~

** Gemuruh jiwa, semangat membara,

Dari puncak hingga ke angkasa,

Berkalungkah bintang berkerlipan,

Menerlah jauh dari yang biasa ~

Ungkapan ini bukan sekadar bermimpi,

Segalanya pasti kau terbukti nanti ~~~~~~

last

2009-06-02T14:42:00.005+08:00

That will be the LAST NIGHT

NS faster!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! at least i can escape for a while..............................

and put an end for IT

I'm sorry that i feel I'm sorry

I'm sorry that I'm the creator and maker of all troubles and problems

I'm sorry that I've failed you

I'm sorry that i don't know when to keep my mouth shut

i really didn't mean to imply anything. I'm sorry that I've made yr life even hectic. sincerely apologize but i know things will still stay the same. I'm capable of making things worst. I cant help up anything, not a single dot, not even a easy task but i can wrack things up side down in just less than a second. I really dunno that this will caused you to make that decision. i know what shall i do next. SHUT MY MOUTH !

disaster

2009-06-01T15:03:00.003+08:00

!! DISASTER !!

Went for disaster duty at section 14, as you know half of the building collapsed. I'm sorry for those who sacrificed in the disaster. I'm sure none of us want this to happen, but when the time comes, it is not within our control. According to what I heard, this was the first building collapsed case in M'sia. There was a case happened in year 1993, almost similar to this, but the one was actually landslide.

I received the call on Friday evening, 6.36 pm from boss, was shocked hearing that there's this building collapsed at section 14 next to digital mall..... Called up wk, edwin and yc. All also on the way...... ok..... GO GO GO !!! change to uniform cause was wearing pyjamas at that time x) didn't even have my dinner and rushed to there straight. Reached there ten minutes before 8. Many already there, SMART Team, Bomba, Police, RC, St. John, Rela, MPPJ. We were given some briefing on what's going on, what we should do and stuff by Dr. Risyah (doctor commandant of the disaster from PPUM).

DUTY DUTY DUTY~ Tired of course.

Went to Genting on Sunday evening at 4pm, reached home at 4am (Monday morning) LoL

twinkle twinkle little stars, how I wonder what you are~~~~

2009-05-28T16:04:00.002+08:00

I woke up today with a very very good mood (: don't know why, I didn't dream for the night but I did sleep very tight! =.=*

She came out with this decision, not to say confirm, just that it letting both of them down. I'm ok with it, can take it, honestly. Although I might sounded sad but I think is good to try out something new. As for YC, I hope you can still stay with us, don't quit, remember the promise between 3 of us?? WE SHALL STICK AND WORK TOGETHER!! BRING UP THE SOCIETY!! I know no point staying when people's attitude like that, but make it cause of the sake of society, stay with us...!

I REALLY DISLIKE THE FEELING WHEN PEOPLE TRYING TO DOUBT ME !!!!!!

happy with fx

2009-05-27T16:38:00.003+08:00

Well, it is not for me to judge who you are. I find it is better for me to keep quiet. I know everything, what exactly happening but pretended don't know anything for the sake for myself. I'll not let others to sabotage my peace of mind, won't let troubles get in my way. In "THIS" case, there's 2 types of person. 1 is will go for it no matter how and the other 1 is don't care and go lackadaisical. For the first type, they will not give up and go all the way and couldn't put a stop for it. Do what also go go go. I'm not saying it's bad or what, is good to be semangat, but over semangat isn't a good thing. As far as I concern, it will makes people around you feel annoyed. The second type will gives a irresponsible feeling to others.

Whatever we do, we have to be MODERATE! Don't always think no one cares for you, no one knows you, no one appreciates you, bla bla bla. You have to open up your heart, bend a little and accept everyone, everything. Believe and trust people around you, of course there's still always a room of tact no matter how close a relationship is.

The RED LIGHT lights up, exploding the subdued silence of my heart.

I cracked my head thinking what shall I bring for NS cause it's just around the corner, asked some for my friends who went for it and finally came out with this TO BRING LIST (;

girl stuff (lol, don't ask what larh)
plastic bags
slippers, sport shoes
umbrella, alarm clock
blanket, pillow, pillow case
track bottom, pyjamas, jacket
collar shirts, shorts, towel, socks
torch light, stationery, market pen (700)
toiletries, pail, washing powder
pad lock with keys
hanger, clips
bottle, mass can, tubberware
own medicine, counter pain, insect repellent, mosquito repellent
charger, sim card, phone
cash, coins
Photostatted ic, original ic, forms
BOOKS to STUDY !!!

2009-05-26T14:46:00.004+08:00

I did duty for both my weekends, and yea, there goes my weekends. hiahz, what to do. But I had fun, learnt something new. It was a karate competition- malaysia open for all primary and secondary schools in "malaysia", but don't know why we had some players from Indonesia, Jakata and Singapore and the banner written there was malaysia terbuka antara sekolah or maybe they were from international school, don't know. Main sponsor was Milo. The first day 4 of us (me, yc, edwin and osla) took LRT and met abang Shah at Majlis.J station, from there we walked to star station, took star to the station named Maluri, from there again walked roughly 1.2km then only reached Stadium Badminton Kuala Lumpur. We walked along the busy road, passed by shop lots eg, toto4D, DAP office, shell petrol station....... so dusty!! Yer~~ We used up RM 9.40 just for the transport, meaning to say one trip costs RM4.70. Supposed we reach there at 9am cause the competition starts at 9 but we only get to reached there at 9.40am, so ya. Rosli had already arrived by that time. 6 of us dutied for the first day. First day NOT much cases, all small little ones, fingers bleeding...... well, cause basically I'm the only girl medic and obviously I have to handle if there's any girl victims. And so, I got a case where a 10 years old girl got her head knocked on the ground, lower left head and her left cheek got punched and she cried T_T I put ice and that's it! We ended our duties at 3.30pm.

I rushed to church in the Sunday morning, then stepped on a BEE and got a stung on my right toe. DAMN!!! It was SOOOO painful that no tears coming out from me. LOL :-X According to my first aid knowledge =) I should had washed with soap for at least 5-10 minutes but because I'm so rush that I only get to washed for less than 2minutes. Lucky it didn't swell up, thanks god. For the second day, same way of going to stadium but this time was only me, nick and osla. Met abang shah and rosli there and we started our duties. Watching kids fighting with each other made us laughed like hell, so cute just...... seriously! x] There was a category for kids within the age 3-4. Abang shah said, nanti mereka mesti nangis, kalah nangis, sakit nangis..... And ya, he's right, the way they cry also very cute. LoL. Made me feel like want to cubit them. Ishh! ;P Before noon nothing happen but don't why in the afternoon damn lot cases happened.

I was so tired but still went for movie at night at 1U after having sushi for dinner =D wahaha!

We did gotong-royong on Monday after assembly in school. Swept and washed and cleaned the whole class. DUST FREE! hehe x) There's only 13 of us in class and 5 of us will be changing stream so left 8 after all. Small class, isn't it? yea, better still.
Today they did campaign for election of Form6 council, whoever wants to take up post have to go for campaign and interview...... so left 3 of us in class... KesiaN !!! =(

2009-05-22T15:29:00.002+08:00

Currently I've made 3 very important and big decisions and I don't know whether right or wrong. I know I already considered more for that, but all these questions still keep turning and burning inside me. What is right and what is wrong or should I be doing that instead of this?? I know I can't be selfish but I just don't know how not to. Let go everything, don't care what's going on, don't go for it, sit there and do nothing??......... The matter will still be there! I need to know these answers, I need to find my ways, can't tell what's waiting, still I need to go..... Anyways, thank you for supporting and thanks for your advice although we aren't that close before that =)) both of you larh. (I'm sure you know who you are xP) Friendship that can only last long as you said. Nicely said!

Played captain and dodge ball for two days, yesterday and today. I group gain the trophy and I gain muscle pull. Can't walk fast now........ ishh =X

get people to understand is damn hard but get people to misunderstand is just so damn bloody easy. Need to brush up my communication skill =.=

NS

2009-05-19T17:25:00.003+08:00

Yea, made up my mind decided to go for NS. Already sent out letters and ya...... won't be here for around 1month plus instead of 3months, cause as long you fulfilled 45 days inside there, you can actually leave the camp but of course need letters and stuff. Leaving on the 17th of June.....

BRING IT ON ! NATIONAL SERVICE !

2009-05-18T15:47:00.005+08:00

It had been long ever since i posted my last post, more than a week. LoL Okay, let's starts off with Monday. Hmm, recall back..... yea, i sited for my driving test early in the morning and late for school. Well, basically first day of school nothing much, just orientation and PMD (program maju diri), registered of course and listened to all speeches given by penyelaras of form6, pengetua, penolong HEM, rules and regulations as usual. And school counsellors gave us a talk on mind setting, meaning to say are you sure of doing form6 and stuff... The best part was we were given some tests as in personalities test (160 questions) and your style of loving (40 questions). As for me, the results were so damn accurate 99.9% and it's cool to know yourself better ;P We did public speaking. LoL ...... debated, form6 or college? Hmm..... Love it!! ;D

What really makes me headache was the changing of streams. I'm changing stream form science to arts and a lot of procedures have to followed. Firstly - tans of letters, next meeting penyelaras and counsellors, have to complete a personality test which consists of 200 questions, the counsellor will then analyse whether or not I'm suitable in doing arts stream by using that result. And finally meeting with pengetua and she will send the letters to Kementerian Pelajaran Tinggi and have to wait for at least 2weeks to get confirmed. x[

Choosing of package (subjects) were on the third and forth day. Besides, there's also a lot of talks going on...... talk talk and talk, play play and play - games organized by upper sixes

I know is just too early for me to say how good form6 is, form6 is the best choice to choose after SPM and stuff but it's really making you to be an adult, think maturely and get yourself involve in all sorts of activities. It's FUN and COOL!!!

I CAN DRIVE !!!

Received the NS letter on saturday. I'm having conflict within myself. I don't know I can cope up with my studies or not after going NS. And if i go, I'll miss sports day, saringan, inter school, inter house, gerko marks.......etc etc etc....... But i really really feel like going. This time my dad called me not to since there's so many sickness going around.... Is a tough decision to make though.....

I wonder and I wonder and I DON'T KNOW

happy mother's day

2009-05-10T22:57:00.004+08:00

BLESSED MOTHER'S DAY !

celebrate mother's day in tears of sadness.. x[ ahiz

having driving test TOMORROW!

so...... GOOD LUCK STEPHANIE !!

after test have to go school for registration (Form6)

2009-05-08T00:36:00.002+08:00

I'M HAPPY BECAUSE I CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY !!! =D

school reopen

2009-05-07T23:47:00.005+08:00

It's been a long time ever since I left school. 5 months considered long for me, yea. And I'm going back school next monday to do my Form6!!! very excited, miss teachers, friends, desks and chairs, field, hall, PBSM room of cause and also toilet as well x] hmm, the school still stays the same but the characters inside are all different. Looking forward into it....... ;D

I didn't get to buy my uniform. ishh.... Been searching around but only professor has it, I'm not a fan of professor... so too bad larh. I have to get my uniform before saturday........! Went to giant, tesco, bintang, jusco...... left only pakson and hopefully they have it. LoL

FORM 6, Here I Come! ;P

last driving lesson

2009-05-06T17:28:00.003+08:00

My last driving lesson. Everything was fine until I met this white colour BMW exist in the middle of nowhere. Can't remember the number plat. Did an emergency brake and luckily car behind get to braked in time also, if not..... accident might happened. Gosh!!! It was scary cause I almost bang her, ya is her, is a female driver. But if i really bang her, not my fault also cause she cut in my lane just like that when doing turning. And my instructor, guess what's his reaction? He said to me, "HON HER! HON HER! Luckily also you get to brake in time so do the car behind." Pfffff.... relief really.... I did hon her after that. wahaha! ;P But it's also a nightmare for me

Hmm...... virus =]

to jas

2009-05-04T16:59:00.006+08:00

Let's prove it by TIME !!

i really dun want to make things any harder, but why??? how you want me to explain only can gain back your trust? what you want me to do? how to change? I can't do anything because that's the truth. ok, u want me to say,

yes, i join because of XX

yes, i didn't go for meeting because of XX

yes, i go for duty is because of XX

for what i can tell you,

none of it is true

no matter what i say, what i do, you will still think of me in this way, still will stick to your perception, right?

well, if that's the truth for you, I respect that. I don't happen to agree, but I respect your right to your opinion

since you said that, I want to clarify. I don't know he's coming for meeting, if really because of him, I shouldn't have turned up for meeting. for that, you can ask him. I can still help up even though my name is not in. yes! i get you, not going for camp but still must in the committee. I said I will help, means I'm already part of committee, so is nothing to do whether my name is in the list or not. I DIDN'T get angry for any meetings' agenda and I know I don't even have the right to do so, even SL's don't even know as you said, so what me? what talk? I will still definitely help you with or without him telling. why u want to doubt that? no doubt for that in fact!

no matter what, i will still respect YOU, still support YOU

if and only god will help me clarify, i don't want things ended up like that

Love leads to life

2009-05-04T15:39:00.003+08:00

Love Leads to Life

Christian faith is not the immortality of the soul or a general belief in an afterlife. In seeing the death of Jesus as the giving of his life for others. Christian faith is not the belief that after death comes life or that death leads to life. It is the belief that LOVE is life and leads to life.

It was not physical death of Jesus, but his death as the expression of his free and loving self-giving that constitutes its religious and theological significance in the New Testament. To die for others is not just to die, but is the most free personal act of life and of the affirmation of life in loving faith and hope and the Christian believe that this life, the life of Jesus of Nazareth, constitutes true life, a life that is stronger than death and survives death. The Christian believes that the life and death of the risen Christ reveals and communicates the invincible and eternal life and love of the Triune God.

In John's theological reflection (1 Jn 4: 7-9) we are told that love leads to life because such a life is sharing in the life of God who is Love itself and to share his life is to have been touched by the Eternal in time. "This is the Eternal Life," says the Gospel of John, "to know you, the one true God and Jesus Christ whom you have sent" (17:3) To know Jesus of Nazareth in the Paschal mystery, in his dying as a loving self-giving in faith and hope, is to know something of God's life, eternal life. To share in such a life is to share in a life that is eternal, an eternity known in loving faith and hope. In the farewell discourse in John, Jesus could say: "I am the way and the truth and the life" (14:6) That is, the life the lives and offers to others is the true way that is life and leads to life. He could also say to Martha, who knew that her brother would rise on the last day, that he was the resurrection and the life (11:25), that his life and death revealed the meaning of life and resurrection.

Christian faith....

is the belief that Love is life and leads to Life

BUL 18/09

01/05

2009-05-02T17:32:00.005+08:00

01/05

When for satu suara duty at Dataran PJ, opposite Amcorp Mall that open field. All of us thought it's gonna be something like carnival, lots of people coming, plenty of agencies, NGO's, mana tau only rela, police and us (medic) and they're having paintball competition. This event was actually organized by government- sport and youth ministry. Great, duty until 6pm form 8am. Before duty, me, yc, fx and daniel (serdang commandant) went all the way to IPK (Ibu Pejabat Kebangsaan Bulan Sabit Merah Malaysia) to get ambulance. Daniel drove us there. WBQ 5990, that's the number plat for our ambulance. Don't judge the book by it's cover. This ambulance may looked very very old, but the engine was way super duper powerful ! can reach up to 120km/h with gear4. Wasn't that much serious cases, all normal case, the most serious one was a ref suffered from heat stroke. After duty, fx fetches all of us back.

MEMORABLE 01/05

life to come

2009-04-27T15:57:00.004+08:00

Different values, experiences, positions, thoughts and these factors might cause problems to us at times when we're dealing with the world outside. I personally feel that problems aren't necessarily bad, it's good instead if we change our point of view. For instance, your chemistry results have been slipping. You failed four test in a row. Your teacher tells you, " Fail one more and you'll have to repeat the year. " Now you have a problem! You then have a plan for your chemistry, you so get a friend to help you up twice a week, do extra study, keep asking questions, repeating experiments, do notes...... Before long you are passing every test and you discovered it's not that difficult. Why? Because you had a problem and you solved it!! It's same goes to life. We cruise and blame along until problems get serious or maybe out of hand. We learn more from disaster than we do from success, aren't we? Think of this, without the challenges in life, you wouldn't be the same person. For god created everyone of us, he wants us to take up challenges and he will helps us throughout. Believe and trust god for he will give the best to us. Never put your life on hold for anybody, don't hold your breath for anyone or anything. Yes, I admit. Sometimes you give everything you've got.....and still fail. Even if you do your best, there are no guarantees that you will succeed. You may do your best and still be criticised. It's not failing that hurts much because you know you had tried your best, gave the best shot, you have done everything you can. The thing is you put effort in, you get results.
Life is a building process, take time to experience it !!! ;D

exhausted

2009-04-25T19:00:00.007+08:00

WHY human beings so CRUEL ??? They like to just hurt one another rather than living in harmony. WHY WHY WHY ?? Can't they just leave HIM alone and STOP sabotaging ???? You guys are soooo busybody, nothing else better to do huh ?? People just want to do something simple, come on larh !! THE WORLD IS TOO CRUEL FOR YOU NOT TO CLOSE ONE EYE. Carefree but can't. What is going on??!? People like you, don't have to respect ! Respect has to be earned !!!!

" HEARTLESS !!!! "

a better one

2009-04-23T16:20:00.003+08:00

* If others give you no respect, monopolise time or walk all over you, ask yourself, " What am I doing to encourage people to treat me like this? " If you want them to change, YOU have to change.

* As always, our challenge is to strike an harmonious balance.

* You decide to control the situation and answer only the questions which you want.

* No explanation is necessary. You don't have to explain your whole life and social calender to everyone else's satisfaction.

* We don't always have to have reasons in life, anyway.

* If you choose to explain yourself, do it because you want to share your thoughts with another person and not because you need their approval.

* The more you stand by your commitments, the stronger you become.

* One of life's important lessons can be learning when to keep our mouth shut.

* Sometimes the best way to get along with someone is to be absent.

* You'll never please all of the people all of the time anyway. You can be doing better things with your time than trying to convince people against their will.

* Praise is the sugar which makes the medicine palatable.

* A couple of intelligent questions will eliminate the problem.

* Get the facts before opening your big mouth.

* Friendship and support is a two-way street.

from the book of making friends by andrew matthews

sth more than love

2009-04-21T17:13:00.002+08:00

THERE IS SOMETHING MORE THAN LOVE !!!

18/4

2009-04-19T00:01:00.009+08:00

18/04 Sat no word!

This is the only day in life so far where I couldn't find any of a SINGLE word to describe. A day full happiness cause went out with friend to catch a movie? Not really. A dehydrated day cause my house no water supply almost the whole day? Not really. A very misfortune day cause my house 'flooded'? Hmm..... Not really. A sad day cause a friend of mine just left to Sabah? Not really. A tiring day cause I played badminton for 4hours non-stop? Not really. A day full of disappointment cause he let us down? Not really. In fact, not even a word can actually describe this day =X

I know you'll surely read my blog, so take this as my reply to your email.
Really appreciate you still treating me as your friend, tell me your problems, seek for my advice and I try my best to help you not because of what, is because you're my friend, no hidden reasons at all in fact. Just a friend helping you. No any misunderstand here! Yes, I admit, sometimes I'll think of you, so? That doesn't mean anything. What's over is already over. We have to keep moving and look forward and not just living in the past instead. There's something you have to let go no matter how insist you want it to happen. As you said, there's will, there's way. The thing is, I DON'T have the will and there's NO WAY it will happen!! Don't have to waste your time moreover you already had a girlfriend. You can't be treating her this way, be faithful to her, give what you can and try to make every of her days. I hope the best for you both! Take good care! Don't be silly think of all those questions again. =)

This's the THIRD time seeing you with your gloomy and depressed face. Really wanted to give a helping hand but I don't know where to start, what to help, when to help, if and only I'm granted with maximum wisdom. I wonder and I wonder and I wonder................. there's NO WAY I can help. =C

You just disappoint me. I'm very disagree with you. Sorry to say that you don't gain my respect!

is sooooo........... DIFFERENT !!!

happy ^^

2009-04-15T17:24:00.000+08:00

happy

VERY VERY HAPPY !!!! BECAUSE.................. Wahahaha!!!! xD

don't ask, I won't tell you, is between us ;)

first driving lesson

2009-04-14T00:48:00.001+08:00

I HATE CURFEW!!!!

Had my very first driving lesson in life! WOW! Damn excited. The instructor brought me to quite a small open space parking lot and taught me some basics, how to control a car well, clutch, gear and stuff. I kept OK OK OK to him x) Okay, after he explained everything, is my turn to drive! So I drove for I think 20-30 minutes there. He started to trust me ;) yea, called me to drive along LDP. I drove with the speed of 60km/h, overtake 2 cars. That time it was drizzling, and this instructor sitting next to me kept saying ' DON'T SO FAST! DON'T SO FAST! THE ROAD IS VERY SLIPPERY!! THIS IS YOUR FIRST LESSON ONLY! ' Right, I controlled the speed back to 40km/h. There were roads with holes, obviously who also will avoid it one right? ya, I avoided. Want to know what he says? ' No need to avoid, this is your first driving lesson, just go only, don't care, don't worry, I won't scold you. ' Once I heard I speechless =.='' Turnings- I didn't brake but accelerated. Bumps- didn't brake, but of course junctions I braked and traffic lights I stopped when it's red ;D Next he taught me how to make a 3 turn point. I mati enjin for the first two times. 2hours gone, time really flies. I asked him what I need to improved, he answered with a word- 'SPEED' I'm like........ err, okay. I will learn to drive slow. LOL paiseh x) My next driving lesson will gonna be on this Friday.

Me, Jas, FX, KN, WK, Nick, WL, YP and MC had dinner together-steamboat. This dinner was actually a farewell dinner for FX, yea, FX again. Nick was so jealous about it saying what also FX, that time the previous dinner also for him, help him to celebrate birthday, but none help me. LOL But

we really had a GREAT time there ~

Latest Research :

LAUGH IS THE NO.1 KILLER !!!!

NO LONGER A MEDICINE!!

we did it again!

2009-04-13T11:06:00.000+08:00

10/04/09

Today is Good Friday. Went to church and fasted since breakfast. Had my dinner only at 9pm+. At about 10.30pm, top 3 in the detachment plus me when to redbox. Price for that night was RM46++. We sang til top of our voices especially when it comes to 'bleeding love'. "This is the first time I really sing" said Ben with a smile on his face =) LOL. Really enjoyed it. Reached home 3.15am. Half dead........... (=.=*)ZzzZxxXz. Sweet DreamZ^^

11/04/09

Slept at 3.45am woke up at 7am, went to ambulance driving lesson. LOL. Not i drive, I see others drive..... I can only drive if and only I got the P license. Damn! But according to what they said, those who drove the ambulance, it wasn't easy AT ALL!!! We got halau by the guard, thuswise our lesson ends at 10.30am. We had a meeting after that at sam's house and supposed the meeting starts at 11 but we managed to only reach there at 11.30+ with a hungry stomach. Discussions after discussions....... on and on........ finally ended. SHINE BEYOND LIMITS, that's our theme. When to church at night until 2am+

12/04/09

WONDERFUL DAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;D

We met Pn Tunsiah. Honestly, I think we should just stick to our plan instead of postpone it........ will see....... God, grant me wisdom.....

just me and you

muhahaha ! ^^

04/04

2009-04-06T15:37:00.000+08:00

04/04/2009

A lot of complains going on, a lot of unhappy things happened but overall everything went smoothly I concluded. Let's start from the beginning of the day. I left my house at 7.20am to have breakfast. Then went to SMK Taman SEA. Red Crescent of taman sea organized a 3D 2N annual camp. Therefore, 9 of us ( me, HL, FX, KT, Edwin, DS, YC, JH and WK ) went back to helped the committee out as well give courses and simulation to the campers. Yea, we're the VAD, can teach those belia. Wahaha!! The course by right should be started at 8am sharp, but as you know, malaysia timing, the course only begins at 8.30am. There were 3 stations for the course - sports injuries, bleeding and fracture. 3 stations, 3 groups. Every group will rotates from one station to the next to complete their 3 stations task. And this took us 2hour, we ended our course session at 10.30am. Coming up next was simulation. We put on make ups on the casualties (camp committee). The make ups this time was a bit fake compared to the one we did in Notthingham. Asked FX why, he answered because they're still belia. LOL. What a reason. All casualties can send to Hollywood already, they acted very real, very touched. Some of them even dropped their tears for that and this made the whole simulation, whole scenario gets even more real. Once they (campers) saw the blood already got panic. Is very very panic the one. Is not they don't know how to handle, is they over panic what also can't remember, don't know what to do, can't refresh back what we taught them during the course. Small little cases like that also cannot handle well, PSP gone, transportation even worst! OH MY GOSH!! We (VAD's) really really felt bad and disappointed of it. FX after that explained everything A-Z to them can say in a harsh way. Can't blame him also, because their performance seriously very suck! Aihz. Should practice more. Practice makes perfect. =)

After all, me, YC, FX and Jas all the way from pj hit down to Sg Congkak, Hulu Langat. 45minutes with the speed of 40km/h finally we reached. To reach there, we went passed small road and malay kampung as well. It was drizzling went we almost reach and so happen it stopped when we reached. Thank god. We faced a big problem!! DAMN!! The campsite closed for renovation. Written there : ditutup sementara. Wa Lau!! All the way from pj now only say tutup. Pissed pissed!! My character - won't give up easily. Called up the person who in charge, begged him saying that we're from very very far, would like to make a survey for this campsite, planning to have a camp here, this and that, talk and talk...... Finally he allows but on one condition. Only 2 out of 4 can enter, the other 2 must wait outside. Lagi geram! But at least better than none of us can get in, right? So me and YC went in, is our first time to this campsite, have to explode ourselves and this place is so big, so huge! Where's the toilet, where's the tapak for tent, where's the astaka, where's the chalet, what activities can we do and what we can't...... And because the campsite was so big, we walked all the way from south to north and from east to west. We took 2hour plus to survey only 60% of the campsite and that was totally tiring, sweat all over plus walked with a hungry stomach. Torturing, really! But as a vice camp com, I know I have to sacrifice more and this is my part, I have to play my role ;) Around 5, we met FX and Jas back at the main entrance. Both of them finally got the permission to enter the campsite this time. So, 4 of us survey the campsite again. Walk again. Together-gether we together. xP Walk and walk, discuss and discuss....... Okay~ is time for us to make a move! Go go go!! Rained cats and dogs outside. We left Sg Congkak about 6plus. FX first dropped YC followed by Jas. He then fetch me to 'da pau' my dinner cause was really very hungry and hit back straight to taman sea after that. He dropped me there and went off cause he will be having dinner with family. Met HL, KT and Osla. Campers were performing for malam kebudayaan. Osla became part of the judges. Left 3 of us there, I reported all my outcomes to HL and discussion was on. FX joined us back after his dinner and that time was already 9 plus. Chatted with teacher, why nowadays kids behaved that way?? aihz. Was so disappointed on her, how can she do things without thinking of the consequences?

11 something we left school. Reached home 11.30 pm.

HOME WE GO!! HOME SWEET HOME!!

HEHE

2009-04-05T23:28:00.001+08:00

HEHE! =)

Something happened today !!! And IT happens once in a blue moon in a very blue moon !!!!!! Thanks for the lunch ;D

HAPPY with it.

he msg me and say want to bring me out,

cuz i was alone at home. ok, so when out with him.

had lunch, he asked want to catch a movie or not

we went to cineleisure.........

april fool 09'

2009-04-02T20:50:00.000+08:00

01/04/09

Year 2009 is meaningful EXCEPT YESTERDAY!! Argh.......

1st of April 09'

Yesterday wasn't my day, in fact not at all. Just don't know why my EQ so bloody low. A lot of unhappy things happened. Things just went it's own way, everything was so wrong. Damn!!

1. Had argument with mummy once I woke up. (sad of course)
2. Get scolded from my brother right after argument. (so innocent)
3. Off the computer switch just like that without clicking on the shut down button. (sorry for messing up your system)
4. Started the conversation with Mr K. (OH NO! real april fool. Must be kidding me!)
5. Huey Lynn got beaten by me twice for no reason. (truly sorry)
6. Lost my temper during meeting. (was so pissed)
7. Snake bite, such a easy task also couldn't teach well. Explain half, paused, explain half, paused. Finally I called WK to take over and explain everything. (WTFish!! shameful!)
8. Tried getting rid of her. (felt so annoying)
9. First time being so so so so honest with him. (about my suggestion. GOSH!! did I say that? unbelievable! where did the courage comes from then??)
10. Slept at 12am, woke up at 3.30am. Couldn't sleep after that. Courted sheep. (missed dreaming)

I don't think april fool was the matter. Luck maybe? Might be. hmmm.... Anyway, NO MORE april fool for year 09. Gone for it's sake!

That's what happened on my APRIL FOOL 2009.

' PRAISE THE LORD '

LOL (=.=*)

1st April

2009-04-01T17:03:00.000+08:00

DON'T APRIL FOOL ME PLEASE, HAD ENOUGH =S

HAPPY APRIL FOOL PEOPLE! DO MAKE FUN WITH OTHERS BUT DON'T OVER THE LIMIT KAY~ ;)

takes time

2009-03-31T23:19:00.000+08:00

takes time

SLOW AND STEADY!!! ;)

48/50

2009-03-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

48/50

Woke up early in the morning prepared myself to sit for the undang test. Last minute only get to study which is last night. Cause basically I was busy with VAD stuff - coming camp. Campsite also haven't settle, food everything. Letters also, we have to send out all letters to PPD 5 weeks before the camp. A bit rush cause we lack of time. Time is so precious!!!!! Start to feel the pressure.
Back to the story. The instructor came at 7.00 a.m. to pick me up. Once he reaches my house, his kancil only left the one and only space for me to sit and of course I can fit in. LOL =) 5 of us plus instructor in the car. This world is really very small, I met Yew Pang (VAD member) inside the kancil. So the jodoh. We ended dicussing about the camp, food, ingredient, campsite........etc inside the car. Now VAD, PBSM seemed part of my life, can't really let go. Chat chat chat and we finally reached. 4 of us, 2 will be taking undang test and the other 2 will be on the road. I'm taking undang and this guy named John also same as me where Yew Pang and the other girl on the road. Cause it was too early for us to sit for the undang test, so the instructor dropped 4 of us to asia jaya there, place where get your P license, yea, there! Me, Yew Pang and John sat together and had a small chat there. Nice to meet you, John. =D Around 8 a.m., the instructor fetch both of us to sit for our undang test. We were the first to reach. Took our test at 8.35 a.m. We were given 45 minutes to answer 50 questions. In 25 minutes time I'm done, but since still have time, I went through once more. Wasn't that nervous when I click on ' TAMAT SESI ', to tell the truth, I'm confident with it. And the result appreared straight on the screen, I scored 48/50. =D so happy, don't have to waste time and money to resit for the test since I passed. Went out of the "examination hall" to collect my result sheet. I called up my parents tell them about this good news. Actually I don't wanted to call him cause that time was 9.15 a.m. and I knew he's rushing to work or maybe on the way driving to work. Don't know why I still call him. A bit disappointed honestly, he sounded very busy, rushing for something. But I can surely understand, didn't blame him on that. Unfortunately John failed, sorry for that, he had to retake. He kept saying : " Oh No, I lose to a computer!!! OH NO!!! " The tune that he used, make me laugh, really xP
Reached home bathe, online to check for campsites, chatted with him. And he apologized for this morning call besides also congrats me for passing ;) Had a tight nap after that from 1p.m. to 7p.m. so freaking tired. Just want to sleep and dream. LOL =.=* yea.
Now waiting for my amali which is gonna be on this thursday then still have to wait for around 10 days to get L and.......... can on the road already!!!!! YAHOOO~ I called the instructor to arrange for me, as fast as possible. I need my P license VERY much! >.<

life

2009-03-29T23:46:00.000+08:00

life process

I don't know what the hell going on with me, feel so sick for the past few weeks! =X Visited doctor yesterday, as usual, got lectured from him, this, that, this, that....... Ahhhh, you think I volunteering to get sick??! Don't be silly. Often headache, dizzy, black out, stomach not feeling well.......... All these really can kill me. No joke. Actually I had a very bad feeling where I think I'm gonna die soon. Somehow this feeling just "pop" up and is so strong. Ya, still have a lot a lot of things I haven't get to achieve, my career, own car and house, my own family.........etc. But 'life' this thing, we can't control, is all fully based on GOD, is in his hand. When is time, is time. We have to accept it and start a new life, whether in heaven or in hell. No idea. It's scary, totally!!!
So guys, if you don't see me for a long time, I didn't pick up your calls, didn't reply your messages or you can't get me, please forgive me for leaving the world in a sudden without saying a bye.

BEST WISHES TO YOU GUYS OUT THERE. LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!!!

again

2009-03-28T23:25:00.000+08:00

again?!

Ahhhh.....! Why am I feeling jealous because of that? I know I shouldn't and yet I can't help it. I tried to hide, but it's still doesn't works. All of a sudden this happened again. What is this man?! seriously. I just........ I just........ Tell me, just tell me, why??!? So pathetic T_T GOSH!!!!! Since when again??!? I had no idea. Basically I'm just following my intuitions, and this's what I ended up with. Feeling so helpless, don't know what to do, what's next?????? The pain is personal and it's deep. The soul is searching for meaning. You have the potential within you.

hopefully GOD will answer my prayer

hopefully hopefully and hopefully.... we.......

GOD BLESS ME

hiahz

2009-03-26T12:02:00.000+08:00

hiahz

All these questions keep turning and burning and churning inside me. I need to know these answers, I need to find my way. Can't tell what's waiting, still I need to go ~~~

make your days brighter

2009-03-24T17:41:00.000+08:00

make your days brighter

accept what you must,
and change what you can.
think before you act
and not regret any moment
of carelessness.
appreciate what you have
and the wonderful person you are.
enjoy the simple pleasure of life:
in nature and in people.
forgive mistakes and forget the past.
learn and discover new experiences
and take life as an adventure.
dream and plan for your future....
go for what you want !!

we are the best !

2009-03-23T23:20:00.000+08:00

we are the best!

VAD PETALING

ADA MUTU, ADA GAYA !

WE ARE STILL THE BEST, THE TOP !! NO ONE CAN BEAT US !!

I really don't get it. I thought we did our best and we can win. Ya, we really tried our best, we gave the best shot. But the mark was so........ just doesn't make any sense to me, totally unreasonable.......... I speechless, real speechless. When we returned to MC house, we acted normal, especially FX. I'm sure everyone is disappointed, was so unhappy and dissatisfied with the result but yet hiding the feeling deep down in heart. But is OK to lose, the most important thing is we got to stand up and work as a team. At least we get to experienced things that we never know before this, hang out as the team, get to know each other. Played cards and mahjong together. That's more worthy than winning right? Come on! We've still got a camp to run, it's another experience, let's make it the best and memorable one kay!!! The whole committee should be mentally and physically strong!

new phone

2009-03-20T16:10:00.000+08:00

new phone!

NEW PHONE

NOKIA 7310 SUPERNOVA PINK IN COLOR =D

realities

2009-03-17T00:00:00.000+08:00

realities

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you, so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you trying to know someone else and expect them to know you.

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

meaningful 09'

2009-03-15T21:53:00.000+08:00

meaningful 09'

Handled a case early in the morning in church. One of my church member twisted her ankle. I applied R- I- C- E method. Went to chapter for training competition. I gained back the confident which I had totally lost ever since that day wednesday meeting~~ =) what a relief to me. I joined RC since standard 4 until now, 7 years plus. I still remember why I choose to join RC. The main reason was at that time, my ambition is to be a nurse. I got motivation from my mom too cause she used to be a nurse. And now, I joined VAD just to help people outside who really really needs help, know how to appreciate us and respect us.

FIRST AIDER !!

awesome !

2009-03-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

awesome !

Well, met an accident today and this is my very FIRST accident case ever in my life !!!! together with two seniors. It's just a small case basically, motorcycle case. When to University of Notthingham. It was really really big and nice, 5star uni. The objective we went there is to give first aid course. Yea. "Makeup" on the casualties, it was totally.....(speechless)..... I SALUTE YOU !!

REMINDERS :

He treats you good is not because he likes you, it's just the way he is.
Surrender to the fact that life isn't fair.
Seek first to understand.
Choose being kind over being right.
Remember that everything has God's fingerprints on it.
Search for the grain of truth in other opinions.
Wherever you go, there are you.
Be grateful when you're feeling good and be graceful when you're feeling bad.
Fill your life with love.
Power of own thoughts.

money again

2009-03-14T00:15:00.000+08:00

money again

Very tired, shopped the whole day. Bought some stuff- tops, ear rings and makeup remover. I bought a top for koko, as a reward for him since he studied so hard for stpm. yea, what a good sister, I know ;) as for you, I don't know larh, I just follow my intuition and final decision has been made. YEAH!!!! you had one too !! =D

CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW ~~~~ yahooooooo!

7.30 a.m.

KEM PASUKAN BANTUAN SUKARELA 2009

2009-03-11T23:40:00.000+08:00

KEM PASUKAN BANTUAN SUKARELA 2009

PBS camp 2009 DAY 1

My first day of camp -- Azizul's. Okay, lets start from...... okay~ first of all, I would like to thank Benjamin for fetching us there all the way and paid twice for tolls =D Although we drove into the wrong way and it was totally scary, cause the road looked very very "kampung", holes here and there, everywhere, can't even see a single tar, honestly. But thank God, we finally reached-- Camp Tekali, Hulu Langat. We were on time as in like 3.00p.m. register, 2.59p.m. we reached. Yea =) That time it was drizzling and just only the first day of camp, of cause will feel potong steam, right? Exactly! But luckily the rain stopped after 20 minutes. So happy =D okay, we waited for others to get registered and it took a long time. Never mind, as a first aider, must be patient. LOL x)

At the beginning, we divided into 10 teams, but somehow something went wrong some way, thus we divided into 8 teams. Each team consists of 12-13 members. And guess what, my team consists of 10 Malays, 1 Indian and 1 Chinese, which is ME! Proud of it. ;) There again, we divided into another 8 groups. Each group consists of 15-17 members-- "dome mates". After settle down everything, we were called to gathered at the assembly hall to watch so-called "BSM History" video. Know what, it was a cartoon history. Cute-nya~ Followed by introducing of camp committee. Coming up next was speech from Azizul, quite interesting, laughed all long. Yea. After that we sang social songs and played games. And that really made me sweat (physically) like hell, really, no joke. Learnt new claps- Tepuk Menyampah, Tepuk tidah apa etc...... As for social songs, we sang "the more we get together, together, together~ ~ (3 versions- BM, BI, BC) ", "burung kakak tua~ ~", "she will be coming around the mountain when she comes~ yippi yaya yippi yippy ya~ ~" etc..... Don't think it's easy, of cause sing is easy, but what if added some actions in? Actions that can considered real insane, childish, funny! WOW!! We danced, some cute dances and tradition dances. There's a dance which goes like this: "kiri kiri kiri, kanan kanan kanan, depan, belakang, lompat lompat lompat". SWEAT lot. We too played London Bridge game. They called it "terowong persahabatan". " WE WANT MORE! WE WANT MORE! WE WANT MORE! ", we shouted, cause basically everyone was already high, yea. =D

We ended our first night with night duty. I did the first shift which started from 1.00a.m and ended at 2.00a.m.. Before that, we divided into 3 teams, each team consists of 4. My team take charged of the canteen. There were chairs and tables, we sat there until our duty ends. Good! Back to dome and sleep after that. =.= zzZZzXz Sweet Dream~~

Hoping MORE for the second day ;)

PBS Camp 2009 DAY 2

We had told to get all things done at 6.30a.m. brush up, everything. We did morning exercise with those cockerels. LOL. Morning jog, slow walk, warm up, a bit of dance......etc. We jogged together with Azizul, he commented on our team slogan : Mengacam tak apa, jangan terancam sudah. LoL. 'sweat' It took us almost an hour followed by our very first breakfast for the camp-- fried mee hun. Oh My Gosh!! I tell you, really really sympathy us. So little, so few. "Special" for kids. Oh man!! Really! So pathetic. We thought out a way, all of us eat quickly just for the second round. Aiyooo, pity us, like a prisoner just came out from jail, that hungry. We were given some time to prepare our sketch for malam kebudayaan. Coming up next :

First Aid Course :

Fracture
Transportation
Wound
Burn
CPR

Obstacles Game :

Tyre Step
Abseiling
Burma Bridge
Kung Fu Dance
Monkey Rack
Balancing
Commandant Crowl

Stations Game :

"Kipcap Balloon"
"Plastic Bag with Holes"
"Sweets in Flour"
"Ping Pong Ball with Spoon"
"Ping Pong Ball in Water"
Water Confidence
Flying Fox
Jungle Trekking

We played water, flours, water ballons, hide and seek, chased here and there like a mad dog...... Committee all were playing around, busy pouring and throwing flours to us, ran all over the place. Really siao! World War 3 was so happening. And plus that time it was raining, we just don't care, continued playing, just want to have FUN! besides fun, still FUN! And it was really really FUN!! Everyone was so happy, laughed, laughers everywhere, YEAH!! \(^.^)/ Is shower time!!! We rushed into the wash room knowing there's sure not enough bathrooms and WATER. We bathed with cold water of cause and it's direct from hill. SYOK SYOK! WOW~~ YEA ^^ Ever since we complaint about the food, finally we got more! Yea, FULL! wahaha x) Nervous hit straight to me next, worried about the sketch at night, later. Well, basically all performence involved dance. My team danced 5 dances thoroughout the sketch. Incredible huh? =) That night, there's a dance performed by committee. Chicken dance, that's for sure! Is a tradition. We sang, we danced and we played games, that night itself, we enjoyed very much. COOL!! The "wave" game and not forgetting, "walk all night". And because it was the last night, we were given permission to stay up until 1.45a.m.. "Gemuruh" was played all night long. Supper next. Had it with Azizul, small discussion over there. Back to tent at 1.30a.m., don't have to do night duty, can sleep peacefully (=.=*) The night was really really cold, thank to my sleeping bag. It made me felt warm and comfortable. I MISSED YOU!

PBS Camp 2009 DAY 3 [Last Day]

Committee pity us, let us sleep until 6+, gathered at 7. I woke up at 6.42a.m.. Don't worry, still on time, just have to brush up and change. Easy and fast. x) Morning exercise us usual, breakfast then. WOW! First Aid competition on the way. A group of 10. My first mission was right humerus fractured. Okay~ steady. Used up two bandages. Done, neat, good, satisficed. Second mission, a wound on right radius. Two bandages also. But Stephanie (not me, one of the committee, yea, same name, lol) said if want to short cut can just use one bandage and put the injured hand inside the shirt. Hmmm, I see, I learnt new things =D eh fx, why didn't you teach me this method? Easy and fast.

I volunteered for kawad bendera. 9 of us kawad-ing. Pity, practiced under the hot sun. Finally I got tenderness. What to do? Volunteering and I loved marching, can't help it ;) We were playing around saying all got second degree burn, blister coming out, processing to third degree xD Cause it was really really hot, sweat all over, moreover we wearing black tops and pants. Black colour absorbs heat!! CRAZY!! Will faint one k if can't stand. Don't play play!

My team won for the malam kebudayaan and we had to sketch all over again during closing ceremony, meaning dance again..... aiyo, so tiring =x paiseh larh. Closing ceremony starts. First of all, speeches from Tn Azizul Amar Rahmat (Camp Comm.), En M.Somasuntharam (Setiausaha Kahormat BSM, Chapter Klang), Pn Fatimah bt. Sulaiman (Pengerusi BSMM, Cawangan Selangor). Done with all speeches, is time for us to kawad bendera. We marched in and sang BSM song. Marched with one hand. CHUN~ yeng! We sang with all our hearts and we gave our fully respect to it. After all, time for prize giving and certs. "Gemuruh" played, we hugged each other saying good bye, take care, do keep in touch....... and of cause, ' autograph please, how about pics? ' yea...... photos, snap snap snap, here and there, the entire campsite, team pics, group pics............................................

This is where my 3days 2nights PBS camp ended~~~~~~~~~~ Go with 1001 questions, came back with 1001 experiences

OVERALL, THE CAMP WAS AWESOME!!!

DATE : 6-8 MARCH 2009

VENUE : Camp Tekali, Hulu Langat

FEE : RM50.00

7 PRINCIPLES : Kemanusiaan

: Kesaksamaaan

: Keberkecuali

: Kebebasan

: Khidmat Sukarela

: Ketunggalan

: Kesejagatan

THEME : Unity In Diversity

CAMP SONG : Gemuruh

CAMP COMM : En Azizul

VICE CAMP COMM 1 : En Shreenath. C

VICE CAMP COMM 2 : En Noel Silas

CAMP COMM SLOGAN : Is Easy To Get A Good Player, but Is Hard To Get A Good Team

TEAM SLOGAN : Purple Femur, Mengancam!

TEAM MEMBERS : Fazrul (Leader)

: Sheril (Vice)

: Dya (Secretary)

: Eddie (Eldest)

: Stephanie (Youngest)

: Maisur (Tallest)

: Adi (Best Drama King)

: Najihah (The Quiet Ones)

: Rubi (Missing Queen)

: Yana (Kind was her Middle name)

: Atiqah (Talented)

: Amirah (Dancing Queen)

Representatives of VAD Petaling :

* Stephanie

* Jun Hao

* Yin Chuan

* Rosli

sorry

2009-03-09T23:42:00.000+08:00

sorry

I'M TRULY SORRY !!

speechless

2009-03-05T23:08:00.000+08:00

speechless

NO WORDS CAN NOW DESCRIBE MY FEELING

>.<

freaking !

2009-03-03T22:16:00.000+08:00

freaking

Hate the feeling where someone did wrongly and we can't do anything nor say anything but just can sit a side and kept our mouth shut! Just because his post is higher, higher status, more power?? What I want to stress here is, although you're one level above us, that doesn't mean whatever you do is correct, is perfect, is the best. As a manager of an office, you have to think wise rather than just giving orders, orders and orders. Action speaks louder than word. Stop putting up dramas! Give top priority to any important things. When both the things equally important clashed together, this is the time where you have to make a smart decision to sacrifice one. And please choose the one that will NOT sacrifice your workers/ working committee! Making decision is easy, but making a smart decision is hard. We know, we understand. But you have to as a manager. Stop bull shitting! As a manager, show a good example!

YOUR PROPOSAL HAS BEEN DECLINED !!!!

** I didn't mean to offence anyone. Just telling the truth here.

Something more

2009-03-02T21:24:00.000+08:00

Received my salary today, 4 digits. Yea, right, I sure be feeling happy, but I didn't. In fact, not at all. Put it in this way, besides money, I had found something more valuable in this world. With money we can buy anything but not everything. Money can't buy happiness, peace, love, knowledge, freedom.......etc
Ever since I joined VAD, although it wasn't long, but I really learnt a lot form this detachment, this society. The cares that we gave, the time that we sacrificed, it was totally AWESOME !!! Some people just don't realise how wonderful it is. They will only thought : help people?! just for free?! for what?! why so stupid?! should make some money from it!.......... and stuff. YES! of cause, you can be selfish, but I want to ask, if one day you became a beggar, or maybe you're helpless, need help, no money, do you think people will help you?? Think harder. People will only treat you good if you too treat people good. A good Samaritan will helps you, cheer you up, even if you don't know them. His objective is to help people, that's it! For him, it's sufficient. That's the reason.

There's a lot people outside waiting for our help! Learn to help, learn to give love to the world!!!! IT WORTH MAXIMUM!!!!

REMEMBER: MONEY CAN'T BUY EVERYTHING!!

The Very First Time In My Life !

2009-03-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

I CAN'T FEEL MY LEGS !!!!! NON-STOP SHAKING. IT WAS TOTALLY CRAZY! INSANE! ALMOST GONE CASE!

SPECIAL THANKS TO FX, JAS AND EDWIN.

KL Tower, 32 floors, 2058 steps, I Will Remember YOU !!

He wanted to carry me down , I scared I'll fall for him once again. If that happens, my previous hard work all gone, cannot!!! I won't let it heppens once again. So decided to continued by myself and i really did it. =D

What a day !

2009-03-01T22:39:00.000+08:00

28 FEBRUARY 2009

EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED !!

Really didn't expect anything much from my first aid knowledge. Thanks to your personal trainings! ;)

2009-02-27T21:44:00.000+08:00

TIME TO CHANGE

I learnt a lot throughout these few months. I learnt not to be selfish and think maturely. Put it in this way, loving someone doesn't mean you have to have that someone physically. As long that person is happy, it's sufficient. But human are just human, we're selfish, we want more. However, LOVE is one of the toughest chapter in the book of life. You need to give it some time, days, months or maybe years. If it's yours, one day it will be. It's just a matter of time. Just don't let the noise of others drown you down, have the courage to search what's in your heart and follow your intuitions. If your heart calls you to wait, then wait, don't have to rush. If you guys are meant to be together, nothing will stop you! Be patient, have faith and be strong.

As for now, I pray for you every day, hope you can run your job smoothly, hope everything goes fine and in control. I really really want you to be happy. When you're happy, I'm done! At least now we can still meet each other, can chat like normal friend does. After knowing you can continue with your life happily, I felt very pleased, I had made a good moved, a very very good moved. As long can see your smile, no matter how much I have to sacrifice, I'm willing to. Not expecting anything much, not hoping we can be back together, not hoping you to remember our past, just hope that you can live happily, smile every day, live life to the fullest!

will be there for you whenever you need me

Dreams...

2009-02-23T21:14:00.000+08:00

" Believe is a Passion to succeed "

17 KEY ELEMENTS OF SUCCESS

Do not fear failure
Take responsibility
Co-operative
Encourage others
Plan of Action
Set goals
Participates
Do not procrastinate
Always follow up
Never prejudge a prospect
Accept criticisms
Do not dwell on problem, look for solution
Be happy on the success of others
Not selfish
Sees the good in everything
Have abundance of patience
No room for discouragement

NEEDS, DREAMS & GOALS CAN BE ACHIEVED !

IT'S UP TO YOU to race with destiny !!!

Celebrate Life and be Thankful !

2009-02-22T20:54:00.000+08:00

" LIFE is a DEFINITE 10 "

Fill your life with JOY !
Bring the right attitude.
Reach for inner discipline and balance.
Make yourself happy !
Be confident.
Squeeze what you can out of life.
Seek the truth.
Be content, live within your means.
Touch others.
Find miracles every day.

NO happiness in having or in getting but ONLY in giving !!!

JOY is a blessing, but it is often a conquest. All this is transitory, it leaves no permanent mark and one day we will look back with pride and faith at the journey we have taken !

Be your own BEST FRIEND

2009-02-17T22:20:00.000+08:00

" Self- esteem is Essential for Psychological Survival "

Promblems with low self- esteem?

Here is what NOT to do :

--> DON' T criticie or judge yourself

--> DON' T try to please everybody all the time

--> DON' T neglect yourself

--> DON' T compare yourself with others. Aim to be the bast version of yourself, not to be someone else

Common errors that can distort your way of thinking

1. Over generalization

2. Global labeling

3. Filtering

4. Polarized thinking

5. Self- blame

6. Personalization

7. Mind reading

8. Control fallacies

9. Emotional reasoning

The TOP secret to stop your inner critic from controlling you world

a) Nurture yourself

b) Take care of your health

c) Accept and love- parts of you that cannot change

d) Make sure you do things that you enjoy

e) Reward yourself after completing a difficult task or making a breakthrough

f) Get help when you need it

g) Ask for a hug when you need one

REMEMBER : YOU ARE A UNIQUE INDIVIDUAL. YOU DON' T HAVE TO BE A CARBON COPY OF ANYONE ELSE. ACCEPT YOURSELF FOR THE MOMENT!

happy- go- lucky

Wrong Timing

2009-02-17T00:21:00.000+08:00

" What is destined to happen will happen "

Life is full of trails and tribulations. " not life but a good life is to be valued ". My tears finally dropped out off controlled. I thought I'm tough enough can just leave it aside and go lackadaisical, continue on with my life. And I was WRONG! Totally fully wrong! Although we haven't been together but mentally we were together before. Is hard to explain those feelings toward you. Age gap?! Generation gap?! Characters clash?! Can't our love overcomes these factors, can it? How about letting " LOVE " does it's part? I knew your answer ever since entering year 2009. Frankly I did wonder a lot, and usually the outcomes will be negative. YES! Finally I decided of letting go, but it seems......... reluctant back again. Really really don't know what to do now. Maybe there's just like rather than love? Are you just a passer-by or what?

" Life is not always a bed of roses ", will somehow take it easy. Really missed the moments when we were together. You taught me marching, we skate together, went Genting together, bbq together with mf, sing k together, movies together, duties together etc...... Remember merdeka eve that night? SWEET memories will be with me forever.

As for now, I wish you all the best and good luck in your future undertakings. One more thing, hope you can succeed in your am. business! Do take care of yourself. Whatever it is, will wait for the days to come........really, sincerely hoping......

_.::"*"::._ Seize My Tomorrows _.::"*"::._

more to come

preparation

midterm

DONE, MUET !

MUET trial + friendship

endless

more to go

packed week

annual camp

misund

hectic week

study time!

you raise me up

three things in life

happy CNY

stronger

sucks

weird feeling

good beginning

hoping

School Replacement

Tough Week

sick

ns

b4 going ns

gemuruh

last

disaster

happy with fx

NS

happy mother's day

school reopen

last driving lesson

to jas

Love leads to life

01/05

life to come

exhausted

a better one

sth more than love

18/4

happy ^^

first driving lesson

we did it again!

04/04

HEHE

april fool 09'

1st April

takes time

48/50

life

again

hiahz

make your days brighter

we are the best !

new phone

realities

meaningful 09'

awesome !

money again

KEM PASUKAN BANTUAN SUKARELA 2009

sorry

speechless

freaking !

Something more

The Very First Time In My Life !

What a day !

Dreams...

Celebrate Life and be Thankful !

Be your own BEST FRIEND

Wrong Timing

_.::""::._ Seize My Tomorrows _.::""::._